so desperate i am that i yearn for people who i don't even like.

It's so funny...I'm apparently this terrible, insufferable loner who can't stand being alone.

i keep telling myself that i will quit being the loner once i find people i like.

im running out on time

I long for peace in my soul. I long for contentment. I long for closure. I long for new ventures. I long for lost opportunities.I long for old friends. I long to make new ones. I long for the profound. I long for the banal. I long for the company of loved ones. I long for perfect solitude. I long for forgiveness. I long to hear you. I long for change. I long for permanence. I long for love. I long to hate. I long for the brightness to consume me. I long to consume the darkness. I long for the rain. I long for stars. I long for the beaches. I long for the mountains. I long for insipidity. I long for things to make sense.

I long for you. I long for me. Oh, how I long for me…

i know i can be funky geeky mad-when-drunk and i can be realllly funny

but no one here makes me wanna be any of those people

im a quiet mouse who scrowls

i wanna be the fun me

i want my peeps around

to prove it to me that i will survive

quite relevant to us

http://t3.dotgnu.info/blog/philosophy/arrogance-of-essence?tweet

where the fuck is anju?

Pure genius this...

oi btw....do u like the name of the blog? u never said :)

im quitting on 30th. i'll miss the people there more than the work which is never enough reason to stay is it?

ahhh...its safe though. to be working under someone. no direct responsibility is on you and you can switch off with righteous indignation from work on weekends. its different when its your work, your pride on the line.
Woah, leap of faith. I'm quitting and then? Then what? Giant dark grey clouds of doubt pepper my sky...

Is it enough to believe that you are made for more? What if timing is king and I have chosen the wrong time?

But whats done is done. I choose. And I'll spite the universe if it means I can choose how to be. And I will be happy maybe not forever but I'll be happy with my choices. No regrets. :)

LIVE. CHOOSE. BE. FAITH. STRONGER. HIGHER. NEXT. WORK. LOVE. PATIENCE. aaaaaaaaaaa....
But no naivete. Smarter me. Better me. Better be.

u and me and anju

http://16.media.tumblr.com/JlSiv0QNXkpfuev7EyhwR8rCo1_400.jpg

trusting for dummies

i can never trust again. the people i could have trusted, i have already encountered. i should've known.

i should have known. when one is in a house with 3 post menopausal women who publicly claim that gossiping is the favourite hobby, my silence and "mind my own business" attitude would be peppered with whatever flavour that suited either...

my silence was not respected, but aptly misunderstood.

i should have cleared my name. i should have.

why the fuck did i choose to be aloof.

Every single time I smell my just washed clothes, something in me grows up. I feel so independent, sexy and like I can take on the world...

Pure genius this...

Oh babeh!!!!
The past two weeks have been killer. I've been trying to do impossible things with finite energy and resources, not to mention hours in a day.

And now I've to make the choices that have been waiting around for me to step up, grow up, take a chance. They wont wait too long though. They might just pass me by. And wont that just fill me with regret?

I'll keep repeating to myself no matter what anyone says or assumes they know about me and the choices I have made/will make.
YOU GOTTA DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO. Nothing anyone can do about it. (Goes for u too Div)
Keeping the faith.

of citric acid cycles and cigarettes

Is it too much to ask to be with people who accept that they haven't figured out everything? People who can consider that someone else's take on life could be refreshing; even if not, it is someone else's personal life and she might have wanted it to be kept personal...and that, just coz she asked for a hug on her first major cold night, does not mean she doesn't believe in her way of life anymore.

Is it so difficult to be with people who do not want to waste a major chunk of their day being fake and the rest, talking to someone else about how fake they just were?

Won't people ever understand that they wouldn't want to be judged like they judge people every waking moment (don't thump your ignorant lifestyle on someone else; just be tolerant to different flavours)?

Why would you want to hurt someone on purpose; aren't you already hurting enough people unconsciously with your narrow thinking?

And don't you realise, just by saying you aren't "technically" contributing in someone else's beleaguer, you are hurting her?

How much can I fool myself to believing that I am learning something from you people? That my life is moving forward in terms of what I am enriching my life with?

I Do Not want to be associated with you people.

Biochemistry is my drug, screw y'all. There is a wonderful coming home feeling to metabolism and cigarettes (Namu, Camel is superbrilliant: I am even a sucker for their pro-women-smoking brands), and most often than not, cappuccino in a paper cup...

But, tis depressing to be able point a finger to the exact set of people you want to be with, and know that you are a stranger to them...

The midnight trains are boarding, all wrap up 8's
I pick my load and filled my truck, before it’s too late,
I leave the stars to judge, my every move,
I’m not going to think of you or I’ll get the blues.

http://wordsmith.org/anagram/anagram.cgi?anagram=nimish+chandiramani&t=1000&a=n

Does Dandelion make u uber happy too?

Summer rolls on in the lazy hours
An ether dream way
Of hummingbirds and clouds
Midnight swims in the cool back waves
And you in my arms as it rolls away

living with post menopausal roomie is too difficult. there is a limit to how much i can just shrug off stuff...

i find great recourse in solitude...

Friends and liars
Dont wait for me
Cause I'll get on
All by myself

http://www.userfriendly.org/cartoons/archives/09oct/uf013223.gif

must watch:

marshall and ted singing "i could walk 500 miles" by The Proclaimers in HIMYM

Pure genius this...

duffy

warwick avenue

rockfeller

she sings me...

I should be falling out of love with Mr. Gopal. He is too unattainable for me. And I don't like to fancy people who aren't attainable. That's why I could never fancy celebrities...

But, I love that guy...

yaaaay

im here

song recommendation!

fireflies-owl city

bhery bhery nice

http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/song/It_s_A_Metaphor_Fool/2804073

Random

Pure genius this...

PHD comics! - is this u yet div?

Pure genius this...

We are the sexy chix!!!

Sexyness! woohooo!!! dance it out!!!

Im dancing? y aren't u??? :D

On Div's behalf...2

Mail frm Div-
u know this guy na
http://www.cnngo.com/mumbai/none/worlds-greatest-city-50-reasons-why-mumbai-no-1-809212
the guy who took the photo

Do I??? No i dont think so. i think.

Ze fartiness of Richmond, Virginia.(right na?)

Mail from Div
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=courtesy%20fart&defid=1705950
yup i is never gonna give up on fart jokes
anndd

On Div's behalf...1

Repost this if u like babe!
Mail frm Div-
http://www.links2love.com/nicknames.htm
put your name and see the perfect nickname for u...
i love your nickname
hehe

and the great nicknames!!!
me-Cuddle boo Kissy-Lover
Div-adorable hot tiger twinkies

Tadaaaaa!!!!

Watch this space...